愛

I’ve found love. A true love I shall treasure. The love begins to bloom while we’re in Form 5. We have been through a lot of different circumstances. Though sometimes we might argue about something and quarrel about something. But both of us tried so hard to keep this relationship. Why? Because we love each other. Sometimes, the words break up might appear but we never let it happen. Sometimes, we just couldn’t bare with each other’s temper. Sometimes, we don’t understand what each other needs. These made us quarrel over and over again. Quarrel over the SAME GOD DAMN THING! It’s irriting and annoying. Seriously, it hurts sometimes and makes me feels like calling off. I couldn’t hold my tears from falling each time. It hurts badly. But…

Sometimes, we had a lot of joy. We can play so much til we ended up rolling on the floor laughing our ass off. We can bring out so many different hilarious and ridiculous games to play with each other. We always laugh hard together. We can chase each other around the house! Haha. Thinking back, we’re so childish. But, its fun so who cares whether it’s childish or not. Thinking back at the happy days, we just have to keep our relationship strong. He knows how much I love him and I know how much he loves me. I feel great and proud having him as a part of my life.

Why do I control him so much? A lot people might wonders. Why I don’t allow him to go out late at night, to spend his time in the Cyber Cafe, to raise his voice at me and etc. I’ve been through few relationships that really pissed me off. I don’t like guys who plays games. Especially Dota. Know why? Because when they started to play, they’ll never stop! They will be so into the game til they forget to eat, forget to drink water and forget the girlfriend. That is why, I don’t like Ian going to the Cyber Cafe. Eventhough i’m just next to him. He would not answer me when I talked to him. Games made everyone deaf. I know I shouldn’t be so controlling and bossy but I couldn’t resist. I want him to be mine. I want him to pay attention on me. I don’t want him to look at something else.

He used to treat me like a princess. He wouldn’t angry eventhough I yelled, shouted, scolded him. I’m spoiled, I know. Right now, he still treated me like princess. But whenever my temper burst, he would scold me. Maybe he thinks its for my own good since I was spoilt by him. But he should think about me right? I know, I have a hot hot temper. But…how can you expect me to change all in a sudden? I love being pamper. I love being cuddle. I sit, you can never stand. I want my boyfriend to listen to me. I’m an asshole.

Maybe I should change…I guess.

We always learn to forgive and forget. That’s the way to keep our relationship right??

Why do people always look at someone else’s bad side, but not the good side??

How do we keep a relationship strong?

Why do people divorce?

Do you believe in long lasting relationship?

I love him. What should I do?